-Leaving-090308

Skin achy shaking
My lungs cant keep up with my
Heart cant keep up with my
Blood pounding through veins over
Skin
feeling stretched
Senses shocked
That these things not physical
Can have an effect.

Refusing to believe its over
gone by so fast so fast, so fast right by me
Days peeled back like pages of a diary
One chapter finished.
Rereads not permitted.
“But god can it really be ending?
Just one more month
For love, another month is all
And I swear this time I’ll really taste it”

Regardless, I know the savor would be bitter with anticipation
No, I lived in those hours
I have felt these moments passing.

But no, no not really.

I know,
And I know I will return
But this moment, this moment-

Pages come unglued
Float free through my head
Turning all my thoughts into paper tree dreams
Sunlight filtered into fire
And I will wait for these heady days to return in their time.